letter after letter....
I scan my memories for something to record--anything to recall...
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That's not to say that nothing has happened--much has happened.
But what do I say?
What do I want the world to know?
My life is a little different now, compared to November.
Little is an understatement.
Somedays, I believe my life has been made whole;
others, I feel the opposite.
I fear the opposite.
I'm afraid of the life I had before. I'm literally terrified.
I can't be the girl I was 6 months ago.
Quiet.
A pushover.
Scared.
Reserved.
Alone.
But life is different now.
Life is good.
Things are good.
Do I have my life in order? Absolutely not.
Am I happy? Definitely.
Although I may no longer be on the other side of the world, I still experience my own kind of adventures.
Every day I laugh.
He makes me laugh.
He makes me cry.
But most important, he makes me ME.
I couldn't ask for more than that.
And so I continue.
I live my adventures.
I survive.
And I do it with a smile.
xo LarissaMormon
